Observations.

 

Sometimes I feel like I observe more than I participate. I observe the people at school and work and ….the mall or where ever I happen to be. School is interesting. When you are sitting a your computer staring at the screen, no one expects that you are silently listening to their conversation. I love to hear what the people around me are thinking. It’s amusing to say the least. They talk about the most inane things. This, more than anything else, helps me reflect on the words that come out of my own mouth. I’m sure that I have some of these same stupid conversations and I don’t even realize how stupid and shallow I sound. 

 

I have faltered big time with my Buddhist studies. I feel like I don’t have a good structure but I am sure the day will come when I have a nine to five job and then I’ll feel like I have too much structure. Where is the happy medium here? I just want to be able to do that little list of goals on a regular basis without wavering. I need better self control. Maybe when I move my life won’t seem so chaotic and the boyfriend and myself can just have our little haven with our cats and one snake and the mice and soon a bearded dragon. So basically the “little zoo.” Is it possible to love animals too much? 

 

I realize this has been very disjointed and not as well thought out as my other blogs. All I can say is “Welcom to my Brain.”